Enough is enough, maybe?

Lately I've been stuck in a loop and I know I'll get back into it at some point, it's human nature. It's not about getting stuck , it's about when you notice what do you do to get back out...again!

It's so frustrating when you decide this time I'm gonna change and push myself only to find yourself back in that hole once more. This blog was to help me be accountable for my actions on this rollercoaster. But it became a stressor to keep doing it regularly, mindset reboot ordered.

Creativity is something I'm in awe of yet suck at if I don't have instructions! 😂

So I'm embracing my suckiness and starting the bullet journal I've always wanted to do. I'm OCD so it'll be more regimented and unpretty but if it helps who cares right? We get so caught up in things needed to be "good enough" to start but the truth is when you're a beginner you won't be. The quicker you realise and roll with it the sooner you can enjoy the moment of learning. If you never start you will always remain the same.

With my birthday looming I get in a mood that is hard to describe. Reflection and optimism help but I can feel low or sombre about this time of year (similar to Christmas/New year)! Started using my Trello app one more to clear my head but focus it on what I had set out for this year as well as plans for next year.

Unfortunately I know I'm an impressionable person and often absorb ideals or ideas when others share theirs. The whole a year to change my life or this time next year puts so much strain on me. I put so much pressure on myself to be better; better shape, better frame of mind, better friend/daughter/sister/auntie, better person to me........! And all this should have been done yesterday right?

So here I am, once more, dusting myself off to get back onto the road.

Actions to take:

- write when I feel inspired and free time

- look after your body, mind & soul

- to become good enough you have to start, beginner suckiness and all!

- compare you to you only

- update/refresh my inspiration board (each season?)

- keep watching or reading those who inspire you to keep going or help you get lost to unwind